starting anew..

2007-06-23T18:03:00.000+08:00

I feel like I'm plastic! just cold, hard, feeling-less..

steven was right, the past years haven't been kind to us. maybe that's why I'm who I am now.. No doubt that I was hurt when I heard abt a certain sth, but a part of me already give up.

People have many sides - strong, fragile, hardheaded, good, bad, etc..Person A can sit down beside you and tell you to do your best to change the situation. And you start to take the person's words seriously, making a silent vow to yourself that you'll change for the better no matter what happens. Then just the next day, you hear from Person B that Person A had actually told him/her that you don't give a damn about advices given by others. Isn't it contradicting? Isn't it discouraging? Isn't it demoralizing? So should you even listen to Person A in the first place, or in the future? this is just one out of the many examples.

I'm numbed to all these interpersonal relation politics already. I had enuff! No one would understand how I feel coz u are all not me, you don't think like me. Nope, I'm not gonna change myself to suit the preference of the group. It will never work out..

So, this is good bye. I'm shifting to somewhere I can write and express myself freely.

too tired of all this,
i wish i can run away,
run far away from all of you,
coz this is too suffocating.

no one will know,
no one can know,
how I feel deep down inside,
and I'm goin crazy thinking about it.

harsh words,
criticisms,
cynicism,
I had enough and I'm leaving.

goodbye to you and to me,
it's a lonely path from now,
but it's a better route,
and I won't cross yours, ever again.

random random!

2007-06-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

sick sick sick!!!!

all the viral attacks in the world unite to gang up on me!

I've been hit by the flu bug, throat infection (thx to my baby) and stomach flu!

wth happened to my immune system?!

i miss my baby, i miss my friends!

Justin's back from Canada and has a weird accent!
(ok, that's random~)

Camp was great, too bad I couldnt stay.

I miss Bon, my Twinny and everyone else from the group!

ok, this is a totally random entry~

but that's because this is the 1st time i'm online for the past 1 week!

gtg~ cough mixture effect's kicking in! =(

*gone*

life's like that

2007-05-25T17:48:00.000+08:00

a caterpillar lives off the leaves that it feed on,
slowly, it grew fat.
when it's time to morph into a butterfly,
it build itself a cocoon and protects itself.
in this cocoon, it is alone, in its own world.
soon, it broke free from the cage that it hid in,
and it became a butterfly, full of confidence.

life's like that isn't it?

we feed on the experience, greed, ambitiousness, all the good and the bad of human characteristics.

then, we become full of ourselves and when people put us down, we crumble.

after which, we slowly detach ourselves from the crowd in search a deep dark valley for us to hide in.

we dwell in that small enclosed area feeling all sorts of emotions, feeling the consequence of our actions and take a step closer to self destruction.

by the strength of our will, by God's help, by a helping hand or by a bright ray of hope,
we find courage to stand on our feet again.

the end result differs, some become a better person, some became worse.

confidence and arrogance are separated by a thin line.

in search of myself and my own path.
my own pitfall, my own fault.
to hell or to heaven, it's my decision.

2007-05-24T10:16:00.001+08:00

MIA-ed for long long long long long time~ haven't been doing anything much lately, except photoshoot with MONSOON, just cleared my German IS lesson, celebrated 3mths "anniversary" with my baby, just got 3 low attendance warning email, etc.... LOL. life feels stagnant and boring, what an irony!

Photoshoot with MONSOON
Actually it's with Twister, which is the "baby" of MONSOON. But anyways, they coloured my hair black! If you look carefully, it's actually reddish purple under light. Same colour as Michelle Chia coz I'm supposed to "impersonate" her in this Glam Star Competition. So I had the same hair colour, same hair-do for the photoshoot. It was a fun experience coz I got to wear branded clothes and had a professional make-up artist to do my make-up for me! and usually he charges $400 per person!!!! he's damn good! his name is Keith Bryan Lee~ One bad point though, and that is I had to wait 10hrs for my turn! =( but it's still fun, I love it~

German
I love German now~ it's like the motivation for me to wake up at 5.30am every Monday for the past 5 weeks, BUT NOW IT'S GONE! coz it ended on monday!!! I miss attending Patricia and Vivian's class! =( maybe next sem I go do German as EP! Ich mag spreche und lessen Deutsch! oh ya, Red Riding Hood's story in German is not that pure/innocent afterall! "Aer Großemutter warum haste du so große Arme?" LOL. ask joyce how much I irritated her with that~ hahaha!!!

3rd Month "anniversary"
went to Chijmes' Carnivore to eat and it was kinda ex! I think it's because it's at Chijmes~ =X and I was so dumb to mistake a lime cocktail for lime juice! =( I must be out of my mind! LOL. but I love my baby, even though he grumbles alot~ haha.. He's my nanny, my baby, my love! *muacks*

time for MWA tutorial! will be back with photos soon!

goldfish!

2007-05-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

10 Facts for the day

1. I traded my eyes with my neighbour's goldfish.

2. Katong Laksa @ Holland V has no cockles.

3. SRC = Sunday Recreation Club

4. Steven = good food + tipping the weighing scale.

5. "This Is The Night" is a gan chiong song.

6. Quaker's girl becoming flower girl on Saturday.

7. I prefer old Han Xiong, but still, thanks for the notes!

8. Timmy's not NSF anymore, he's a career man!

9. Timmy's gf is manja coz she's missing her bf and has goldfish eyes~

10. time to do B.Law tutorial~

Ciao!

stifling air,
awkward silences,
cold glances,
but no one seems to care.

betrayed, bastard.....

2007-05-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

it's been 3 days and it's still affecting me.. it's disappointing, it's upsetting, it's infuriating. and I cant stop tears from flowing whenever I'm on this topic. No matter how many times I hear the explanations, I'll still have the same reaction, over and over again. It has never occurred to me that it's happen, or at least not now, not from them, the people whom I trust. The only bunch of people whom I face without a mask. now, I have to..From this point on, I'm on my own. I've gotta help myself to become a lil bit stronger, I've gotta be like a porcupine, a puffer fish.

I'm sorry if you guys happen to chance on this, but I gotta let it out. Another lesson learn today, I should stop trusting and believing in people easily.

lost in the wilderness,
groping in the dark,
fighting the loneliness,
you are my only pillar.

"200 Pounds Beauty"

2007-05-02T02:38:00.000+08:00

oh yea, if you realized, I've change my blog song! it's "Byul" from the OST of "200 Pounds Beauty". sounds emo, and might not be nice, but that's coz u neva watch the movie! LOL. those who did, they'll appreciate it more, I hope~ haha..

found the other nicer songs from the OST too.. here are the links:
"Maria"
"Beautiful Girl"

the songs are by this singer/actress named Kim Ah Joong. sounds a weird, but she's good! "200 Pounds Beauty" is definitely in my list of top 10 movies of the year!

let me say this again... THIS SONG DAMN NICE!!!!!!!!

2007-05-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

I know I know, I haven't been blogging for about a month? LOL. I'm such a lazy poke!!~

SO many things happened over the past 1 month sial~ been hanging out with the Baracudas, spend a bit more time with my boyfriend and work!!! oh yea, and school re-opened like 2 weeks ago~ haven't been missing school! it's a good start! =P oh did I mention that we finally have an eye candy in class? tt06 now has 2 major cliques: the old tt02 people(tt's us) and the old tt06 guys and girls. and among one of them, it's a kinda cute guy. Tiffany and I were thinking, "Finally we have a decent guy to look at in class!" LOL. no offence guys! =X but back to school, year 2 topics are really tough. gotta work extra extra extra hard if I wanna get a GPA of 3 and above. =(

got to watch some nice movies too! "200 Pounds Beauty" was damn touching! korean shows always make me cry! especially for "Windstruck", it's the best ever... for those who haven't watch it or have neva heard of these 2 movies, please go watch! it's UBER UBER nice! even my "eat-kan-tang" bf says it's nice, so you can imagine~

hmm.. update again soon, gonna crash~

me & pearly~

2007-04-05T01:50:00.000+08:00

finally got to meet my dearest god-sis today! went to this cafe/restaurant to eat and the food was great, ambience was great, service was great, literally EVERYTHING was great! damn nice.. gotta go there and eat some more! it's highly recommended!

PEARLY LIM SHU PING! faster go jian fei then join me in SIA~ LOL.

dance was great, we did "Icebox" by Omarion today! nice choreo, but I cannot catch. as usual~ lol. these 2 weeks gonna be damn pack with rehearsals and and stuffs. but you guys can still date me out in the day! =P

aight, shall show you the pics and let them speak for themselves~ =D

yup, that's her.
Pearly Lim Shu Ping~

act feminine~
she's younger than me by 7 wks!
so I'm the Da Jie~
muahahah!!!

my turn to zi lian!
so cute rite?
LOL.

act sad-ed.
haha..
she say i got pouty lips~

trying to gobble up the flower,
despite our uber filled tummy~
LOL.

I look so much younger than her sia~
but i'm the eldest of the 3!
LOL.

the "down-up" cam-whoring technique~
nice!!!

the "up-down" cam-whoring technique~
our face looks smaller!
that's GOOD!

this is the end of our lunch date~
so happy to meet up!

on the way back to school, we talked and chatted about the past. we realised we've grown alot! 8 years~ it's a long time! so many precious memories, even the quarrels. and of coz, who could ever forget the "tulips = rose" incident? LOL. it's great to know that there's someone always there for you and no matter how long you've disappeared from each other's life, you'd be able to pick it up from where you left it. I miss hanging out with her already!

she'll always have a special place in my life, in my heart. loves! =)

dimly lit candles,
yellowish photo pages,
a sweet reminiscence,
every night I cradle~

PMS~

2007-04-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

people have sides which they don't usually show to others. people are also like magicians, changing faces, characters and attitudes based on who they're with. so which is their true personality? or, are we to accept all sides?

have you ever wonder what the person next to you is thinking right now? looking into his/her eyes, are you able to read his/her mind? look deeper, look around, the answer might just be staring at you.

ok, this entry is kinda random. something's wrong with me today~ got a lil cranky, crazy, moody. in short, signs of PMS.

"date" with Faan!

2007-03-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

*woots!* cam whored with Irfaan today!! and we bumped into Steffi & Sophie today! haha.. and she thought that Faan's my bf! LOL. he's just my bf's buddy and NOT my scandal~ hahah...

I really had fun today! he's a wonderful company and yea, we bitched quite abit! lol. he's farnie, entertaining, talented, chatty, knows how to cook, well versed in 5 languages (malay, english, mandarin, FRENCH & GERMAN), working (means stable income la~), and owns a car! and guess what.. the best part is he's single! LOL. i sound like i'm promoting a product! =X haha.. but, he is single and looking around~ =P

so I shall shut up and let the pics do the talking! =D

yummy,
heavenly,
Chicago Cheesecake

yup,
we're enjoying every single mouthful~

cam-whoring @ Inter-Continental Hotel!
i look ghastly pale and FAT!!!
=X

hmm..
dun mess with us.
we BITE!

nice candle~
LOL.

the candle looked like a glass of milk!
and i still look pale! =(
muz be the flashlight from faan's cam~
LOL.

mmm...
I've got chubby cheeks!
this is bad, VERY bad~

wah seh..
i think we look like a couple~
LOL.
Timmy, don't jealous k? =X
i still love you, darling~

and the best pic of the day has to be the next one!!!
coz, Faan looks uber cute!
hah!

see!!
so cute right?
act innocent only~
LOL.

haha... we had fun and were laughing the entire day~ hope you'll find a girl with T.A.B. soon! LOL. thanx Faan! =D

oh yea, my spree stuffs finally came! and that means, new clothes!!! *whee!*

my Timmy-boy called a few times today despite being thrown into some jungle~ LOL. he's so sweet! aww... can't wait for him to come back tomorrow! or rather, in about 12hrs time! yay-ness! shall wait for him outside his camp! haha~ then we can go "pak-tor". *big grins*

shall go continue on Desperate Housewives! see ya soon! =P

45 things a girl wants from her boyfriend.

2007-03-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

ooh! i forgot about sth.. saw it on Liana's blog and I thought it's true and it's sweet, so I'm sharing it with all of you out there! be it a girl or a guy, there's got something for you to learn or something know from these 45 things. take some time and read through! =)

45 things a girl wants from her boyfriend.

1. Touch their waist.
2. Talk to them.
3. Share secrets.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss them slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Let her be with you when you're with your friends.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say "I love her more than you," deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say "I love you," when you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful not sexy.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her! You need to show her you mean it too.
21. Kiss her on the lips.
22. Don't ask her to buy you stuff. You buy her stuff.
23. Tell her what feels good.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Buy her stuff. Small things can still help.We might deny it but we actually like and kind of want you to get us things.
26. Don't lie to her.
27. Don't cheat on her.
28. Take her anywhere she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school & work, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose (It will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don't ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call her at night to wish her "Sweet dreams."
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Dedicate a song to her.
45. Always Remind her how much you love her.

so girls, how true are they? and guys, trust me, it works on EVERY girl. and i mean E-V-E-R-Y one of them out there.

life today~

2007-03-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

tonight's dancefloor was pretty interesting! Platinum did a wonderful job with their chinese element choreography! sweet! reminds me of my primary school days~ mmm... ok, it's way back into time, so i shall not go there~ =)

went to watch "Breaking and Entering" with NuNu and Faz today! the company was good, but the show sucked! Jude Law is handsome, charming, and horny! LOL. ok, maybe not him, but the character was.. and wth is going on with nudity in movie these days? ok, this is gonna get abit agitated and maybe even exaggerated, but it's just how I feel. M18 allows not just nudity, you know~ there's gore and violence, so what's up with movie makers? sex scenes and breasts??? i mean, if it was filmed artistically, I'm totally fine and more than ok with it. but what's up with the director when he/she decides to shove a woman's bossom right smack in the middle of that screen? 300 had some nudity and sexual reference, and I'm totally fine with it. and in fact, it was fabulously taken compared to what I've seen today. alright, so maybe the director of B&E thought he did a great job on that scene. from his perspective, it's artsy, I respect that. but from my point of view, as a viewer, I disliked it. period.

after the movie, we window shopped awhile and Guess? had some pretty new Spring collection in store! and may I say, OMG!!!! it's uber nice!!! i'm sooo addicted to it now~ some more new stuffs are coming in these few weeks, so I'll keep my eyes stuck on their display windows. muahahah! I officially announce that I'm desperately in need of a job to pay for that Guess? wallet and handbag I saw today~ haha.. alright, I know I sound bimbotic~ LOL. but that's the benefit of being a girl, right? we can whine and complaint like nobody's business. hah!

just got off the phone with my Timmy-boy~ he had a long long day in camp today! =( heartached when I heard that he got heat rash on his back again! *sobs* my poor darling! will sayang you loads when you come back aight? oh yea, speaking of my boy, it reminded me of how silly I looked over the past few days! coz I was smiling to myself when I read his msg-es, thought of our conversations and even when I looked at the necklace he gave me! and yea, I looked like an idiot~ ronnie could testify for it and he made a super farnie comment. he said, in mandrin, "eh, is there a need for you to smile to such an extend when you're just reading a sms?" LOL. yup, I pretty much felt embarrassed! but, what to do? lovey-dovey in the honeymoon period, baby~ =P

alright.. enough of this mushy stuff already~ i know u all are gonna puke! haha.. shall spare you guys and continue the night with the company of Gabrielle, Bree, Susan, Lynette and Edie. shall update on my "date" with Irfaan tomorrow! =) nights people!

2 more days! worst case scenario, saturday~
*keeping my fingers crossed!* = X

haunted~

2007-03-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

why do girls/ladies/women get haunted by the past? why do we keep thinking of the "what if"s? and curiosity does kill the cat, just as it did to me.

it's been 2 days, but it seemed a long time. luckily, I have "Desperate Housewives" to keep me company. thanks to him who downloaded and loan it to me~ =) and I talked to him for the longest time on the phone today! can't wait for his return on friday! everything's gonna be alright! *prays hard*

It's girls day out tomorrow with Nurul and Faz! miss them loads! can't wait to see them tomorrow! dinner date with mummy and uncle Peter too! gotta miss dance again~ =X i'm such a bad pressie!!!

oh yea, remember I told you guys I wanted to take French and Business Etiquette? well, I didnt, but Harry did! and apparently, he's not happy with it! I could have just killed him myself! *roarr!*

I miss my Timmy-boy~

IS selections~

2007-03-26T10:25:00.000+08:00

ok, so I didnt get French and Business Etiquette for IS this semester. but I got German and Intercultural Communications! 1 language and 1 lifeskill module~ German seems weird/odd/crazy, but who cares! I shall be the unique one~ muahaha! and knowing a 3rd language does help when I apply for SQ 2 yrs down the road! Intercultural Communications is basically about body language, emotions and thoughts of ppl from different races! very useful, especially so when we're dealing with people ALL THE TIME. =P so it's all about my SQ dream~ haha. I'm mad about my SQ dream recently. I don't know why, but I'm holding on tightly to this dream of mine, more so than any other dreams/ambition I had before.

I shall continue my beauty sleep before I get bigger eye bags and darker dark circles! =X meeting mr tan & dance later! *woots!* busy busy day~

keeping myself occupied while you're not around.

baby, and updates~

2007-03-26T04:31:00.000+08:00

before I update y'all, let me say something to my poor army boyfriend that has to stay in camp for the entire week, aight? thx! =P

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For my dearest army boy~

kies.. I hafta confess. I'm not a good gf at all! tossing and turning in bed for hours, but I still cant seem to fall asleep. broke my promise, and came online to blog and change my template. I'm sorry! =X

I last saw you about 6hrs ago, last spoke to you about 4hrs ago, but I'm missing you - BADLY! tell me how am I (or rather, WE) supposed to endure the next 5 days? short to some, but it's the longest we'd ever spent apart. was feeling kinda lousy having to deal with not seeing you for 5 days & PMS~ feels shitty! *BOOOOOOO!!!!!!* then, I saw your testimonial & your tag! you left tracks at places where I visit often. my uber sweet darling boy, that's why I love you.

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UPDATES!

Myself
been sick for the past 1wk! down with throat infection, AGAIN! it's like the 2468397543th time I had this since October?! stupid sickness made me uber drowsy and had me coughing + sniffing + sneezing all the time! and it didnt even spare me on our 1mth "anniversary"! *argh!!* missed dance for the entire week because of that too! and, I think I'm responsible for getting Mr Tan sick as well! =X indirectly, of course! I mean, we didnt do anything what~ LOL.

oh yea, there's a reason why I embedded Cascada's Truly, Madly, Deeply here. coz Timmy and I ALWAYS hear this song when we're on the roads! so, it's not just any love song~ lol.

1 month old!
our mini "anniversary" celebration @ CHIJMES went well and I was totally blown away! (read on and you'll know why..) made a uber bling photoframe and collage for my boy even though I was sneezing my nose off, was quite proud of myself AT FIRST. was expecting my present to be a ring, coz I sorta guessed it from his actions. BUT, in the end, he presented me with a uber nice necklace! my first reaction was like, *gasp!* OMG!!! and I had that wide-eyed look on my face! coz I know it's damn ex! then, I felt really shy about my present, coz it's totally impractical and it's nothing compared to his present. despite that, I must say that my present is PRICELESS! coz I put together our memories for the past month with love and my *ah-choos*! LOL. so, my dearest Timmy, please go find some where to hang it up or I'll kick your arse! =P

My School
did my time-table selection last tues and it was nerve wrecking! everyone so kan chiong to choose the slackest time-table! went the portal opened 2mins before time, everyone rushed into NPal and try to register for tt01 coz that's the best time-table out of the 6 choices! Aik Leng and I were already in that class, but we had to register for tt06 instead. why? coz of our dearest classmates! we love them too much to abandon them! we've sacrificed ourselves for the greater good~ LOL. imagine me going through it again in less than 3hrs time! the only difference is, I don't get to choose my classmates! so, just choose my favourite IS module! and that will be French and Business Etiquette. =)

I super need to find a part time job now coz my bank account is depleting and it doesnt help when I'm hanging out with people like Harry who spends like water! LOL. but then again, school's gonna start in less than 3 weeks and I need to spend time with Timmy-boy, so anyone has lobang for a good paying part time job with short working hours? it's not that difficult to find, right? =X

*sigh* think I'll go nap awhile. dreaming of him for 2hrs beats sitting here, staring at a life-less laptop~

take care my dear, I'm missing you already~

Lovey Dovey

2007-03-24T03:23:00.000+08:00

well well.. that stupid boy fooled me!!! haha.. but I love pleasant surprises! =P

everyday is a special day now! breathing in a fresher breath of air, seeing the world that's filled with spectrum of colours, and being with wonderful people around me~ everything seems so different, in a good way, now.. a happier person, recharged, and now ready to take on the challenges.

every inch of me is feeling it,
every nerve in me is picking up the vibe,
every breath I take in,
is a breath of love.

Jess has Timmy, and that's all she wants.

I've got something to say....

2007-03-14T09:20:00.000+08:00

i got something to tell everyone reading this blog....

I PASSED MY EXAMS

AND NO NEED TO RETAKE MODULES!!!!!!

I'M NOT

AND WILL NOT BE A .....

CROSS -LEVELLER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll miss you....

2007-03-13T01:23:00.000+08:00

every second, at some part of the world, a life created. but, there's also another that's taken. life's such an unpredictable event. every word, every thought, every action in each circumstance determine your next step, the consequence, the outcome. these days, life's been good to me. even the darkest days of my life doesnt seem to be that miserable and difficult anymore. and that's because of 1 incident, 1 person, 1 life.....

my 18 years of life on Earth, I've known 6 Aarons. but now, 5 is all that's left. He, left us on last sat. where were you on 10th March at about 7pm? I was so close.. close to him, close to that place, I even wanted to go over.. it's too sudden, it's not fair. not fair to TSS, not fair to his parents & siblings, not fair to Zhang Jin, not fair to us (his friends), not fair to him... my heart cringed when I saw his face on the cover page of the newspaper. then I realized, Skye isnt playing a trick on me. till now, I still cannot accept it. "traumatized", "heart-ached", these are only words to describe the describable feelings. so much doubts, so many questions, so much emotions involved. this will be the 3rd incident that has left such a deep impression and impact on me, and my life. my perspectives and values have been swayed because of what happened. I'll never forget this day.

He was awarded the "Model Soupervisor of 2006". His shift, was always so organised. He loved coke and Fishermen's Basket, but because of Zhang Jin, He cut down on coke coz it's bad for health. the things that He'd do for love... He cared about us, at least to me, i felt it. He remembers things that you briefly mentioned, He advise and talks to you when you have problems. He's friendly, He's rather approachable, but now... I wont get to see Him in RC anymore.. I wont get to bump into Him in town anymore.. He was one of those whom I spend long working hours with. and I miss Him.... He likes to "bully" me by asking me to change the garbage bag, and/or "gek" me during shifts.. I miss all of that... and to know that He didnt leave peacefully makes me even sadder, because He dont deserve this..

today, i saw his younger bro.. he's almost like a replica of Aaron. it's so weird to have him around coz he really look like his bro... I cant go on anymore.. it's still stuck in my head...

it's gonna be a long cold night...

a moment of anger,
a moment of folly;
control your temper,
don't be silly.

a clear white sheet,
stained with crimson red;
gone with the wind,
gone, is his life.

You'll be missed, coz you mattered to us.

Busy Weekend

2007-03-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

aight! after a long hiatus and a series of visiting, collecting ang baos and gambling sessions, i'm here to blog again! muahaha...

my CNY this year is the best coz I collected more ang bao as compared to previous years, and also it's been some time my hse has been opened for visiting! muahaha.. I truly enjoyed the company of my loved ones, relatives and my dear friends. and i'm so glad that NP made us take our exams before CNY, if not I'll hafta study during the break!

now...let's let the pics take u through the events over the past wkend.

First up,

My House-warming & TT02 CNY Gathering (25th Feb 2007)

Steamboat Session

a total of 11 people turned up, not too bad!
but my kitchen abit small..
haha..

look at all the food on the table..
all prepared by me!!!!
yes, EVERYTHING including the soup base..
hope u guys liked it.

after dinner, it was time for some games and gambling.
the NorthEast side ppl playing mahjong~

perlyn and garie
the *ahem* totally scandalous couple.
lol..
ai mei~

regina and gabriel
walking "ang baos".

bringing the festive mood even though it was alr the 8th day of CNY
haha..

Next,

TT02 Chalet II (26th - 28th Feb)

Night Cycling gang for the 1st night

on the road outside Changi Air Base
Standing(left to right): Gabriel, Hsien Tze, Aik Leng and Kenneth
Sitting(left to right): Kerlina, Tiffany, Perlyn, Wan Xia, Wei Zhen and moi!
Shane hao lian..
lol..

i'm the most pro in jumping!
lol..

juz the girls~

our version of 2.0.0.7

after returning to the chalet with aching butts and sweaty bodies, we bathed and started to play games like mahjong, indian poker and Black Jack.

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Black Jack forfeits

aww... so sweet..
look at that smile~
muahaha...

wat a perverted classmate I have..
perlyn peeked into my shorts to see my ass..
=X

Tiffany had to say "Hi" to hsien tze under the table~

and she had to kiss Wei Zhen's ass!
lol..

now now, what do we have here?
perlyn! i tot u were kissing garie?!
now u're smelling gabriel!
OMG.
so scandalous~

nope, ker is not givin shane a BJ!!
but i think she is in love with his pacs..
lol..

Indian Poker time!

group photo before drinking~
garie and gabriel so high coz garie bit gab's toe!
lol!!!
lamers..

perlyn trying to act sexy and cute..
lol..
and yes, I'm damn red..
high~
woohoo!!!!

Girls grp pic~
Tiff and I drank quite a bit..
so red..
=X

the guys act seh~

the drunken us~
tiff had to drink again coz she had the smallest card.

den, we decided to stop drinking as forfeit.
now, it's time for some serious dares!!!

Wan Xia and Tiff kissing.
lol..

den, garie and shane kissed!

garie quite suay..
he keep losing..
so the next forfeit, tongue to tongue lick with hsien tze!
muahaha...

and perlyn had to bite kerlina's nose..
EVIL~

garie licking kenneth's ear!!
totally gay!!!!

haha...
perlyn and kerlina licked each other's tongue too..

den after a night of cycling, games, forfeits and booze, we all went to slp at 7 in the morning. while some of us deal with hangovers, some were slping soundly..

2nd day of Chalet

McCafe breakfast with my Harry piggy!
lol..
used to serve and watch ppl eat,
now I get to enjoy it myself!

Sheng Kiat and gf joined us for the bbq~

Kenneth mei mei~

orh hor...
hsien tze taking advantage of Wan Xia!!!

The guys needed extra hands to start the fire~

Perlyn and Liana,
my babes!
sobs.. neva jio me to cam whore!!

haha..
coz I'm paying mahjong inside with Tiff, Hui XIn and Huang Zhi

tsktsk..
greedy couple~

ayy..
dun kill each other over me..
I love both of u!
lol...

See No Evil, Hear No Evil, Speak No Evil!

latest pose and look in town~
2007's hottest and coolest look,
the Love-Sick Look!!

OMG!

our chef of the day~
lol...

and we were like tai-tais,
playing mahjong and waiting for food to be served..
lol..

she's so greedy and she doesnt share!
*hmph*

and look, who have we here!
our NEXT DOOR neighbour..
BOBBY YEO WEI LIANG!

we wanted to take a grp pic,
but a cockroach crawled under my feet!
thus the commotion~
=X

finally, taken our last pic of the day..

thx for such wonderful times my lovely classmates!
and plz dun put the vids of our drunken acts on Youtube!
now u know, I will "hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha......."
lol..

These Beautiful People...

2007-02-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

I found this pic on DF's website.
started out with 6, but ended up with 4.
it's the journey and the company thatt matters!
love.

haven been blogging coz of my papers. but now that I only have 1 more paper to go, I've decided to post some pics as a tribute to SOME of my very important friends~ and it's Valentines' Day too! since I'm still dateless, I'll give my time to my dearest frenz.. too many impt frens, so plz wait for your turn if your pics aren't up today k! (actually juz trying to tell everyone tt we love to cam-whore. muahaha.)

First up.....

That's Liyana! love her to bits!

she's my daily tabloids~ lol..
thx honey for all the good times, and the bad.
thx for sticking by.
=)

now, this is one of the year 1s that I was really close with.
Vanessa.
like Matt, she calls me ah mah~
"dun ever look down on what u're capable of.
take things in your stride and you'll be able to see that you can actually do it."
take care my dear, dun keep falling sick aight?
=)

Next up, my past and my present..

62A (2000)

after 7 years, we're still together.
we've known each another for 9 years and it's the ties that binds.
besties, god-sis, even BGR happened among us.
my dearest 62A (2000),
you guys are one of the best thing that happened.
my love, always.

7 years, we've grown and we've changed.
but, it's still us.
the girls have decided to let the minority be ahead of us.
anyway, they wont be around for the next 2 years.
yes, we'll all miss u guys~

with Changtai.
and we thought he came just to join us at the last second.
but he came coz his frenz wanted to eat at Chomp Chomp too.
i miss the way he calls me "Woodpecker" and "Bicycle".
my class partner for 2 years and classmate for 5 years,
i miss hearing your voice and all that stupid innocent things you'd do to irritate me.

T07 / T38 IS Group

Our 1st very group photo.
it wasnt planned, we all just happened to wear black.
we've slacked, we've chionged, and we've enjoyed each other's company.
Harry absolutely dislikes this pic coz he realized that he's legs are wide opened.
I'm glad you finally know the meaning of "pai seh".
lol.
=P

Girls (left to right) : Yours truly, Yuting, Amy, Yuan Qin
Guys (left to right) : Shakti, Harry

Yuting: thanks for being the time keeper and dragging us back to work.
Amy: you're the organized one, always improving on our work.
Yuan Qin: thx for being such a fun grpmate, someone that's spontaneous.
Shakti: thanks for always being so concerned if we needed help in the reports,
even when u're not around.
Harry: thanks for always standing on my side and help me out and around.

Before our last lesson together...
Cam-whoring @ KAP

my drug dealer~
my wonderful shak.
=)

I cant bear to leave you guys..
thanks for the journey.
(youwereonmymindallthetime)

Gui No.1 and Gui No.3,
my fashion-sista,
Hairy Piggy's babies.
we're still on his HP's wall paper~
muahaha..

my smile comes naturally when I'm with all of you.
I had fun doing the video with you guys!
one of the best times and memories in NP!
much love and all the best!

He absolutely hates this pic and only sent it to me to cheer me up.
but I wanna tell him that he looks as yan dao as ever,
even with a constipated face.
lol.
thx bud!
u can be hairy(lol!), u can be a pig, u can be a pain in the ass,
but u'll still be my bestie.
thx for everything you've done.

MUCH THANKS TO YOU GUYS!
love.

My "brothers" (1 year ago)

They laughed at me coz I was overly dressed,
but that doesnt matter coz....
I outshine all of you~
lol.
they are a fun bunch and I wished I had knew them even better.
we'll hang out more aight?
I'm nearer now~
=)
(left to right) : Ronald, Min Kai, moi~, Gilbert, Bobby

1 year later...

we've grown so much now..
6 years of frenship,
much tears, much fun and much laughter.
things that people cant rob,
our memories.
thanx for always remembering moi~

we could be mistaken as a couple,
but you and I know that we've already surpassed that.
we can talk about anything under the sun.
and it really does mean ANYTHING.

since sec 1, u've always cheer me up when i'm down.
all the names that you left behind in my chinese dictionary..
all that memories in Bowen, and even after that.
thanks, you're a fren for life.

I know I can always lean on you.
thanks for allowing me to.

it's supposed to be a tribute, but I don't know why I feel so emo now.

so many things I'd like to say, but I guess it time for me to eat those words up and lift my head to look at what's in front. talking to Kenneth (from YEP) yesterday made me realize that it's not just him that has a problem to address. I guess I could use the words on myself too. It's time...

an empty void,
a bottomless pit,
a living pain.

i shall cry no more..

The Time of the Year

2007-02-08T02:56:00.000+08:00

supposed to be mugging for Macro now, but i'm tired.
brain dead to be exact.
been studying alot these days.
gotta save my ass, don't wanna be a cross-leveller~
I must be a good kid~

mugmugmugmugmugmug

trying very hard to concentrate,
but YOU keep coming back into my mind.
seems like all is well,
but it's never what it seems to be.
why am I still thinking about it?
maybe we weren't meant for each other in the first place.
I'mnotyourtyperightfromthestart.

my new found bestie,
shopping khaki,
mugging buddy,
self-entertaining duo,
Gui No.2,
mao mao,
Mr-Tall-guy-who-does-stupid-things-and-laughs-at-his-friends-for-all-the-lil-things.
haha..
proudly presenting.............
HARRY TEO HONG JIE!
lol..
actually quite lame~
(he'll definitely pong my face for this)
a guy who's younger,
but yet he understands what I'm goin through~
thanx buddy!
all the bez for your *ahem* surprise~
juz dun forget to reward me with some information of *ahem* "eye-candy"
LOL!!!
these things aside,
all the best for POA tomorrow!!
=P

you made me felt loved, but.................

The Happenings

2007-01-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

ok.. for what happened over the past few wks, i need some pics to help me further illustrate my point~

now, i think it was 2wks ago when we found out that Sheng actually has an affair with Kenneth!!! it was in POA's lecture that we saw EVERYTHING!!!

NOW EVERYONE LOOK HERE..

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omg... look how close they were!!! tell me about it~

SEE!!!! THAT'S PROOF!! omg!!! sheng, how can u do this to ur gf??? haiz..and kenneth!! how are u going to explain this to erm.... von?? lol... it's juz for laughs, but seriously.. TT02 has too many scandals~ haha.. i'll need to draw you a flow chart /mind map to explain our relationship!! LOL! love them lots! *muackz*

alrite.. then about myself~ remember i posted in my last entry that I actually wanted to pierce my navel? wanted to wait for my pay on 5th Feb, but I got my pay for the Frisk job on the spot!! haha.. which meant that I had $$$ to go pierce! Though it was only $50, but I hadnt use my pocket money for 2 days, so I ended up with $70+ in my wallet! woohoo! so me and liyana went to far east to have our navels pierced! yay!!!

I love the stud!!! it's purple on top and blue bling~ muahaha... the pic of my tummy looks damn fat coz I ate KFC and a bowl of fish beehoon before I had the picture taken. lol.. I was darn hungry, hadn't eaten anything for that day~ and I was damn bloated after that! not to mention, I need to jian fei!!!!

hahaha..the BK job was cancelled today, so there goes my $75!!! quite sad, but like what I always say to my frenz, "when God closes a door, He'll open another." in this context, my mum sponsored my new hairdo!!!! haha.. yes everyone, I've joined the Curly Curls Club. LOL! dunno what's gotten into her! she suddenly has money for me to perm hair and dye hair(for herself)! I suspect she struck lottery, if not, she won $$ frm the game of Mahjong the other day~ but who cares where the $$ comes from?!(juz kidding) I've permed my hair and I'm a happy girl~ lol..

this is me right after I permed my hair!
it was damn curly~
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me again, at home admiring my new look~
abit matured though, but i like it!
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haha.. yup yup, and yes if you guys havent noticed, I'VE GOTTEN RID OF MY BRACES! I finally have straight set of teeth now! yippeee!! coloured contacts, new dye and highlights all coming soon! kindly sponsored by my dearest mum and *ahem* ~ =)

it's back again,
when will it leave this time?
i doubt i'll be able to get rid of it,
i'll have it for life....

LOST~

2007-01-25T01:40:00.000+08:00

FINALLY! all re-tests are O-V-E-R!! but cannot slack! exams in 2 wks time~ I'm gonna be so so so dead.... i need God's wisdom upon me now! =(

havent been dancing much, well, maybe only for Open House. but still, I think i'm stagnant~ hah! coz I neva attend lesson ma~ Funka's grpings are out!!! hope it's final coz I love this combi! muahaha..though i wonder why ann put me with them and why GIRLS HIPHOP???? i'm kinda anxious and curious about the choreo! tomorrow gonna learn it. 9.30pm, that'll be the time where I'll learn my first few eights of my FIRST FUNKA choreo. and DF's a total wreck! looked so unglam last sun, saw an advert today and it looks horrible(coz close up & i was looking down!), lastly, we're soo gonna be scrutinized by the judges on this sun. ayy...everyone, please stay away frm the television from 8pm onwards!

well, is it this also the end for us? or should I say U and Me? maybe there isnt an "Us" in the 1st place. after dragging it for so long, could this make us happier? I'm sorry I had to tell you all that, but perhaps, there wasn't any other way to let you know how I was feeling inside and there wasn't any other gentle way. maybe we've rushed into things and we've missed out the fun of courtship and spending quality time together. but nevertheless, feelings are hard to forget/let go. and like i said, it'd be for a long long time.. you werent happy with her, but you loved her still. that's all that matters. as long as she is still in the picture, i will neva fit in. 2's a company, 3's a crowd. i'll take the back seat now, do whatever you please. juz wish that you'll be happy. but don't forget, you have someone here who'll alwayz have you on her mind.

now my friends who have been worried sick for me, thanks everyone! esp Liyana, Steph, Tian Kong, Jen, kinkydarling~, Liana, Perlyn, Guis 1 & 2 and even Jt.. I'm fine, I'll be alright! it hurts, but that's what makes us grow right? thanks for standing by me and listen to me fuss! and ms TWQ and my dearest libra girl, thanks for all the advices and things that u girls have done. maybe you wont read this, but I still wanna shout a loud THANK YOU!

i'd like to move on with my studies, dance, work, and other commitments, except for relationships. for this aspect, I'd like to take a break. it wont be easy to forget and let go, coz think i fell too deep~ lol... let's juz concentrate on studies, dance and earning money shall we? =)

*NAVAL PIERCING IN 11 DAYS!*

lost in the madrush,
lost in the streets,
shadows and clones,
too lost in you.

IHATEMYSELF

2007-01-12T10:35:00.000+08:00

yay! congrats to me.. I officially screwed up my life once AGAIN!

I just f***ing hate myself. Thanks.

I shouldn't think of it, but I am.

what am I to do?

2007-01-12T04:57:00.000+08:00

ayy.. it's almost 5am and I've still awake. was actually studying, but there's too many things on my mind. cant really concentrate. econs' test is in a few hours time but I'm only halfway through my revision.

yes. I know, I'm screwed.

I'm prepared to take a re-test. nope, I'm not proud of it. just my punishment for not studying hard this sem~

so many things that I wanna say, but I can't. not here, not to everyone and anyone. misconceptions, misunderstandings, miscommunications... tell me, what am I to do about these?

drops of fatigue,
drops of tears,
physically away,
but the heart remains.

missing you!

2007-01-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU LOADS!!!!

ayy..absence makes the heart grow fonder, and how true is that! haven spend enough time together during the weekends, and now it's over!! =(

so touched when you wanted to come and meet me just now.

u make me fall helplessly in love with you.

drifted planks,
floating weeds,
dancing fishes,
in a deep blue sea.

golden sun,
swaying trees,
running winds,
across the green wide field.

majestic sky,
mesmerising moon,
sparkling stars,
all in the twinkling night.

sleepless nights,
longing heart,
caring lover,
in a land called Love.

gently now,
my deepest desire,
my ohsowonderful one,
careful, of my strong obsession.

My Questions..

2007-01-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

while you're out with your friends, I'm here by my laptop. listening to some emo songs, eating cup noodles and thinking about the questions and things that you said earlier. most importantly, thinking about us.

you always say maybe you're not the one for me, but what if I'm not the one for YOU?
maybeyouwillregretyourdecision
what if I'm not what you want?
maybeyouwillbedisappointed
what if I'm not what you've expect?
maybeyouwillbehurt
what if I don't make it to SIA?
libraswilldoanythingforlove
what if I do?
we'llhavearguementsbutIwillgiveitupforyouifyoustandbyme
what if you grow sick of me?
thenmaybeit'llbetimeformetogo
what if I have bad-temper and attitudes that you can't stand?
iguessyou'llleave
what if I'm determined to make this work?
willyouworkwithme?
what if.. in the end you feel that she's the one for you and you've only loved her?
thenmaybeyouhavelostyourtruelove

will you have a change of heart or decision?
onlyyouwillknow
will you be by my side even though I might not be your perfect girl?
youtellme
will you accept me for who I am?
it'sadifficulttask
will you let me get to know you better?
ifeelsofarawayfromyou
will you let me into that locked room that only she has the key?
thinkthat'stoomuchtooask

too many things to think about, but decision and stand still remains. dreams, some are not compulsory to pursue. being a stewardess is my childhood dream, but it's not all of my passion. a want and a need. something that we all need to ponder about.

down the river bend,
across the greens,
a road with winding paths,
tell me where will my love flow~

a short note edited

2007-01-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

*sigh* this weekend I'm jam packed with things to do. think i'll disappear from MSN till wee hours in the night. school's ok~ it's fun with my lovely tt02, but tutorials suck big time. reflection for IAC and letter of report for mr tan not done. I am sooooo gonna die. shall do it soon.

dance is bad, very bad. tell me how I can cope better..?

tired. coz of school and others~ been a good girl recently. faithfully wake up at 6.30am to rush to school for 9am classes by bus. I've never been so hard working ever, not since the 1st sem in NP. hopefully I keep it up and achieve the 1st resolution that I made this year. =)

short post today~ long day tomorrow. bye guys!

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*edit* someone complained that the post isn't about him. so i gotta juz briefly mention abit to pacify this boy~ hah.

love the way you always go out of your way just to meet me,
love the way you shower me with your care & concern.
love your charming smiles
and your sweet assurance.
thanx~ for all the happy times.

=)

Just kidding about the briefly mention thingy. it's for u from me, honestly. =)

blurred vision,
complicated decision;
matters of the heart,
so hard to decide.

Our Attraction

2007-01-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

my doubts were cleared,
feelings declared,
72 hours,
that's all we have.

But you know after that,
even if you change your mind,
I'm always here,
coz i really fell for you.

instant attraction that brought two hearts so close, too close..
now, we're torn between choices.
even so, I love you.

My Lovely Days...

2007-01-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

shit...school's re-opening tomorrow and there are things that I'd miss and of course, projects not done. LMS -> grpmates have not send me anything despite 478292902 reminders; IAC -> absolutely no clue, we haven touched it yet~ let see how tomorrow goes, but I'm sure we'd be screwed. haha.

I'm bored. finished my part of the project, i'm just waiting for time to pass so I can go meet my dearies! 62A(2000) here I come!!yayness! missed them lots! cant wait to see them later at chomp chomp~ I wonder...

is Zhao Yu/Jack/Orange/Nova/Phoebe/somenamethatIforgot still changing his name, and/or is he still erm..very in-touch with his feminine side?
is wanqi still going ga-ga over SOUL?
has alvin changed his hairstyle after 6years?
when jenn huei is going to say 'hi' to me in class after 1 whole sem!
if pearly is still gonna look as motherly~
if shu wei and pearly will remember our stupid acts in town and on the train?

*sigh* I realize my primary school days were filled with loads of precious memories. we were so innocent then. the times we all sat on the bench behind our class before assembly, and we all started singing Backstreet Boys songs, especially Show Me The Meaning of Being Lonely & I Want It That Way. and of course, the times we spent at the fitness corner hanging on the bars like bats and monkeys, training our flexibility; and to see how daring each other was by climbing up the highest point of the pull-up bars section & monkey bars. The only way to get down, just JUMP. yes, and yours truely landed on head once, which I didnt remember until wanqi reminded me. LOL! I wonder how the rest are doin. peiwen left even before we had our P4 streaming. i miss her too. speaking of her, it reminded me of the times we spent behind the stage doing our "duties". LOL. we the stage prefects were having a time of our own backstage holding our own singing competitions. bet the rest of the students don't know about that. hah! it was fun! so much.. so much to talk about.

i miss the old building, i miss ah lye, i miss mrs seah who made a difference in my life, i miss mr ong, i miss that Charlizard(LOL), i miss the aunties' chicken wings and mee soto, i miss saying "pupils in the fitness corner, please assemble in the hall now; pupils in the canteen please assemble in the hall now.", i miss the "perfume" from paris.. so many things, so many memories. I really had fun there.

like someone would say, "so happening la~". haha.

people come and go,
memories engraved deep within,
buildings demolished,
but it remains forever in my heart.

pictures turn yellow,
people grow old,
time does not wait,
but the movie will keep playing.

a new age,
a different life,
many paths ahead,
but stay close and true to yourself.

deeply rooted,
never will I forget my educators,
people who gave me the best time of my life,
my precious -Teck Ghee Primary~

(";)

my sexy love

2007-01-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

omg.
someone help me!
i'm not supposed to and maybe i shouldnt have..
but i cant help it.
i'm head over heels and crazily in love.
I'd leave when you want me to
(which i seriously doubt I can)
but for now,
I'd like you to be mine.
even just for a little while.
my sexy love,
marcus darling~
=)

hearts pumping,
blood rushing;
breath-taking,
a look so seductive.

Beginning of a New Year, Beginning of a New Life

2007-01-01T05:25:00.000+08:00

Hah! Happy New Year everyone! it's 2007 already~ time really fly faster than an aeroplane. Haha. the same jam, the same places and the same motion every single year. but tonight, I had fun~ loads of fun!! it was beer night, then a quick escape, a little bit of act-cute-and-innocent seduction to drive to Cathay, and lastly a 40min late entrance to a movie. How's that? (maybe some of u don't know what's going on, but I'm gonna pretend that you know coz I'm not gonna through the details!)

my lovely liyana got stuck at home, TT02 went for steamboat then mahjong, angel and shir went clubbing @ zouk and guess who I bumped into today! lots of em! Danny & gang, Eugene & gf(i suppose), Ryan & Charlotte, Phyo & Eunice, Sophia & husband and some others which I forgot who. Haha.

29th Dec, I finally told someone about it. might be my 1st step to walking out of that shadow.

Aight, sadness aside. Let's do something traditional! Yes yes, THE new year resolution! =) hopefully I'll be faithful and loyal to stick by it! Let's see..

Focus on studies (and I mean seriously! no more unnecessary pon-tengs~)
hope to improve in dance and manage the club properly~
get rid of panic attacks when under stress! =(
more shoes, bags, clothes and such! lol.. (a girl needs her retail therapy)
have more family time~ =)

nights people! have a great year ahead!

a wonderful night,
though stars weren't bright;
the night was long,
but time was short.

New Year Eve's Eve~ =)

2006-12-31T02:51:00.000+08:00

and we all thought that The Wicker Man is some horror film. but SADLY, it wasnt! hah! it's alroght though, coz it's the company that matters right? It's damn freezing cold in Toa Payoh's cinema!! someone had to shiver and freeze in the cinema and at the same time, concentrate on the show~ haha!

the concert today was kinda boring, but I got to see Wei Jian in person! so cute~ but that's beside the point.. the point is that this girl, she's really talented! Tiffany, she could sing; play the drum, keyboard and some other percussion instruments!I love her voice too! I'm glad I was there to hear her sing~ =)

Charity performance on fri! 5 days left to learn Chambermaids choreo from stephy! I need a miracle!! =( but it's alright I guess coz I really wanted to be a part of them during Danzation! haha..Pump It's gonna be brought up on stage again, one of my favourite choreos~ =D

gentle winds,
rustic leaves,
the scent the lingers,
it's all that's left.

an escape,
a short vacation,
I was out of my world,
and that's when it all began.

from dusk to dawn,
time flies with the speed of light,
places with our trails,
that's all that's left.

memory stays,
time passes,
impression carved,
but will my shadow fade away?

finally done!

2006-12-30T04:36:00.000+08:00

finally done with my new blog and skin! alright, now that I've changed the address of my site maybe I'll have new audience! =)

haven been updating my previous blog, so shall do it now! I promise to be a faithful blogger from now on~ been watching lots of movies for the past 2 wks! let me count..at least 5 movies in 2wks! I've never watched that many movies in the cinema in 2 wks in my entire 18 years of life! today was supposed to add one more to the record, but all because of me, we didnt catch the show. *sigh*
but on a brighter note, I got to eat nice minced meat noodles! =D

4 days more of holidays, why did it have to end so early?! but i'm glad I didnt waste my holidays rotting at home.

actually I wanna continue to write, but Mr Khoo said I gotta slp coz it's 5am alr! so, gotta go!

*oh yar, before I forget.. this particular person said that I had to credit him because he gave me some code that I needed. so....... THANKS MR KHOO KAY SAN for helping me find that one teeny weeny lil' code!!! lol...*

nitez people~

2006-12-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

testing~ 1,2,3.. =)